So hard.

This cycle I have actually felt extremely sick so far! Overdose on antisickness meds! Ok not overdose. Thank God for there being lots of options. But I would really like the chemo to be done know. 14 cycles complete and hoping for good news from the scans next week. It has been a over a year since I got diagnosed.

I want it to be over so I can enjoy life with my new mindset. Enjoy every moment and learn from everyone who enters your life. Give as much love as you can and if you reach your limit then bless the person and let them go. Maybe at that point in life you are just not good for each other.
That last part is totally Deepak Chopra whose meditations I have been listening to. He has lifted me when I have been very low.

Nect time I write I will be feeling better inshallah (God willing). These first few days are so tough.

Just can’t do any colours today.

Actually…family. I would not have been able to get out of bed today if it was n’t for them giving me a push. Literally! I would just stay in bed until night!