So many different types though!

I have learnt that there is a common misconception that Chemo is just one set of drugs given to people suffering from Cancer. I have to admit that i used to assume this too…well I probably didn’t really give it too mich thought. The fact is that there are hundreds of different medications used for chemotherapy given in varying strengths depending on the type and stage of cancer.

We tend to associate Chemo with hairloss and weightloss. I have learnt that hairloss is only a side effect of some chemo drugs given for certain cancers. Weight loss is not caused by Chemo either, but if you get nausea then you may not feel like eating as much. If managed well, one can avoid this by taking anti sickness meds etc.

Anyway, one week has passed since I had my chemo meds administered. Nicola said I will have one less medication this time because of my sore feet and skin peeling. I had not mentioned this to her earlier as it seemed trivial. However, have learnt that it was a vital sign showing that the chemo was getting a bit much for my body. She explained that we need to find a balance and we want to avoid long term damage. So for this cycle we will do the combination of chemo usually given to treat colon cancer when found at a lower stage.

Thought: if I had acted faster, maybe my cancer would have been caught at stage a lower stage and the treatment would have been much easier and quicker!

But everything happens for a reason I remind myself! And i have seen so many blessings in this journey already!

So day 1 and 2 of chemo were much better than any previous sessions and I got excited that there was very little nausea. However, the last few days have been difficult. Fatigue has kicked in more than any previous cycle and I am struggling to do mich at all! Sometimes the thought of getting myself up from the sofa is so daunting! And then when I finally get up, i just want to sit back down! Nose bleeds have increased and seem to be happening quite a few times daily. My body feels very weak. In a way that I find difficult to describe. I am hoping that next week will be a better week and I get some more energy. I need to do something that I enjoy but am struggling to focus on anything. I am also missing the kids now that they are back at school but am making the most of them when they get home. They make sure I get out for a bit daily and go for a walk or bike ride.

As I see people getting back to their busy lives, I pray that I always remember the important things. I pray that I never get carried away with the temporary, material aspects in this world. The man made way. Life is so short. God is the planner. It is so easy to focus on petty things and forget the bigger, more important picture. I pray that I always do the right thing.

Oh by the way, I am still speaking without thinking which is quite risky at times! I have been doing this since chemo started and Those used to me know this and are now prepared lol! But maybe the nurse shouldnt have asked me if she has pit on weight (bless her!) 🙈. I don’t know if this ‘being extra honest and saying it how it is’ is a side effect of chemo but am hoping it goes once it’s all over! I am becoming kind of scared to talk!🤨

The colours ….

🏳️‍🌈 family….always ❤
🏳️‍🌈 the kids!
🏳️‍🌈 sunshine🌞
🏳️‍🌈 social media (never thought I would say this…but it has really helped distract me through some tough times!)
🏳️‍🌈 hope
🏳️‍🌈 tomorrow

Lots of unlimited love 🥰