Scans!

Alhamdulillah the scan results showed progress! Going to taje a break from the chemo for now and start Radiotherapy in a few weeks. (Apparently less side effects but because it will be targeting thr stomach area there will be nausea🙁). But we have anti sickness tablets😁. After Nicola told us the results , we found a beautiful green space behind the hospital to sit and digest everything.

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For now I am just excited that I get a chance to recuperate and enjoy a few weeks of summer properly. (Well as properly as we can in Lockdown!)

Scans
I cant remember if I have written about the scan procedure before but thought I would describe what happens. I wish I had known the details before. So an MRI scan is the one where you go into a tunnel. Normally it takes about 15 minutes but my one includes injecting a dye and looking at lots of different organs including the liver so it takes about an hour. I fond the room is very cold and after having had quite a few of these I now know that I can wear thin black leggings and socks(they dont tell you this!). It really madd me feel more comfortable as I was shivering in the first one which really didn’t help!
I lie down on the bed and wear headphones. These serve 3 purposes:

1. enable me to hear the instructions of when to breath in and hold my breath. I used to find this really difficult until one of the doctors told me that I don’t have to breath in all the way! As long as I hold my breath at a certain point and dont move.

2. To reduce the loud noise of the machine towards the end of the scan.
3. To listen to a radio station, which I say no to as it all gets too much!

The bed then moves into the tunnel slowly. It is quite narrow and I normally keep my eyes closed. I used to get a little anxious about this process but am fine with it now. I use the time to gather my thoughts and even some prayers. This time I was actually almost in a state of meditation. Yes I shocked myself too lol!! In fact, while in the tunnel I challenged myself to meditate during the next MRI I have! Ok it i know it sounds crazy but hey it seems like I am going to be having these regularly for quite a while and i can’t let things get boring! 😝

Next, i have the CT scan which is a quick 15 minute one. When they insert the dye I feel a very warm feeling go through my body and sometimes get a metallic taste I my mouth. It also feel like I have wet myself and the nurses remind me everytime that this will happen and it is normal lol!! Weird!!

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Everyone was wearing masks and so was I which made it different to the previous ones. Overall, the whole experience is not that bad at all. Best bit is when I break my fast of course!!😋 Me and DH used to go for lunch somewhere afterwards but lockdown has changed this. Had a banana and crisps to keep me going until I got home to a delicious meal cooked by DSis and DD💜.

Yeserday ,I went to the cemetery after a very long time. Miss daddy so much but I know he would not have been able to see me go through this. I know he is safe and in a better place. I do wonder if he knows. Got me thinking of the importance of mum. So lucky to hav her. Alhamdulillah. Miss go ing there every Sunday and miss our days out but keep reminding myself that it is for her protection as well as mine. Can’t wait to be able to hug her again!

The colours….

🏳️‍🌈 No sickness🎉
🏳️‍🌈 it is Summer!!!
🏳️‍🌈 I can drink cool drinks and can probably brave an ice cream by next week!! (One of the chemo meds meant I could only consume warm things.)
🏳️‍🌈 radiotherapy process only takes about 10-15 minutes compared to the 3 day chemo treatment.
🏳️‍🌈 Netflix and cooking programs!
🏳️‍🌈 Meditation

Ooh lots of colours this time!

Going to go and pray the mor ing prayer now and then sleep.

Sweet dreamzzzz ☀️