Honestly don’t know where to start! It has been a long time since my last post. Firstly, I am fine and have actually been busy getting back to doing normal things like cooking, cleaning and spending time with the kids!! (Catching up on almost 6 months of their lives which I missed due to my surgery and chemo). I am back home which is fab and no more chemo for now so I have been making the most of having no sickness etc!
I was so lucky to have that time att mums and Of course I do miss being spoilt there by everyone! I have learnt so much more from mum! I feel a changed person (for the better of course!). Being content. Giving unconditional love to everyone in your life. Accepting everyone for who they are. Putting your ALL into whatever you do and doing it with LOVE without expecting anything in return. Being grateful for absolutely everything! Something that has really stuck is when she was thankful for the sink becoming full of dishes half an hour after she had cleaned everything! She said Alhamdulillah(praise be to God) that i have family to keep my kitchen sink full! She did the same thing with the bin getting full. The kids laughed at that one🤣. Anyway,I now see the world in a different way. Try to see the good in everyone and everything. I pray that I continue. It is difficult and at times I am losing it and getting frustrated with things!
So the last 2weeks or so have been unique to say the least! What is happening in the world at the moment feels surreal! I feel sad for those who are suffering and hope that everyone manages to find some rainbow colours during these difficult times🤲🏳️🌈 ( i was so excited to hear about people putting pictures of rainbows up in their windows and children can see how many they can spot).
I was looking forward to finally being able to drive and see my friends and family once chemo stopped. But God had other plans…instead he has given me more time to stay home, reflect and spend time with the kids🎉. I feel like the world has joined me in being given a chance to just stop and be!! Oh and with the no hugging and social distancing lol!!
The last few weeks I have felt free as i am no longer in bed most of the time and I can walk up and down the stairs without getting out of breath! I have even been cooking only with fresh ingredients! Before my diagnosis I was so busy that I was looking for shortcuts for dinner, such as tinned tomatoes, frozen onions ready oven dishes. Now it’s all about the fresh fruit and vegetables!! I have the time and energy right now so I can! Kids are older so they join in!
A pic that DD took which i thought was quite cool! 👆
Let’s find my rainbow colours in the Lockdown :
🏳️🌈 not rushing around for school and other activities .
🏳️🌈 Time! Although if I am honest I still feel there are not enough hours in the day!! I mean how??? I think i spend too much time preparing food and eating 🙈
🏳️🌈 we now have dinner as a family. Kids can stay up later so we can wait for DH to get home. This was impossible with school!
🏳️🌈 can get to know the kids more and listen to them. The conversations can get so deep…love it!
🏳️🌈 kids are helping out with the housework and learning life skills. Yes I believe knowing how to fold clothes and mop are definitely important life skills !!🎖
🏳️🌈 i get to play Forza (a driving game on DS’s xbox). Oh how I was dreaming to be able to drive again….This is the best alternative for now and i am actually really good!!! DS agrees!
🏳️🌈 sitting in the garden and watching the kids play and laugh!
🏳️🌈 the sound of the birds clearer than ever as there are few cars passing.
🏳️🌈 being able to call loved ones who I have not been able to for a while! Not getting very far with this because I still cant multi task but am hoping to make some calls soon.
🏳️🌈 learning to use the apps to socialise with family and friends.
🏳️🌈 spring cleaning!
🏳️🌈 seeing the sun shining when I wake up
🏳️🌈 Praying with the kids and discussing our TeaSPoon prayers for the day. (Thank you for… Sorry for… and Please….).
🏳️🌈 Gardening with kids and seeing the seeds grow. Waiting for the raspberries to make an appearance 🤞.
🏳️🌈 hot weather is coming 🌞🌞🌞
🏳️🌈 Amazon and Asos!! 😉
🏳️🌈 increased awareness of hygiene.
Wow that was easier than I thought and I actually came up with so many positives!
I am so glad I made a rash decision to go to the garden centre just a few days before the lockdown. I just needed to drive, get out of the house and feel free! So me and DS went up the road the garden centre. We spent over an hour there and bought seeds, compost and some plants. Loved every minute of it ! Didn’t tell anyone until we got back as I shouldn’t really have been out alone (well without an adult!)🤫
Well done to all the kids out there for adapting to their new ‘norm’. Let’s join the clapping today(Sunday) at 3pm to acknowledge what our children are going through during this difficult time. Especially the younger ones who just don’t understand why they can’t go to nursery anymore or to the park or to see their grandparents. And also the older children who will not be taking their GCSE and ALevel exams that they have been working so hard towards!
Suddenly there is no hurry to be anywhere. We are given the precious gift of time! Time to be free from our normal fast pace! Time to do the things that never got to the top of our to-do lists! Time to be mindful and present in the moment. Time to actually Listen to our children and not just hear them while we are doing other things . Time to tall to our parents and loved ones. Time to acknowledge the beautiful nature around us.
It felt good to write things down again. I must make more time for this.
May peace and health be with you all.
See ya🌹
My Rainbow🌈 